Lactation appointment

I met with the lactation consultant today (a specialist who works with mothers who have difficulties with breastfeeding their babies). At the appointment, Finn was not latching on, which I guess was a "good" thing because then she was able to work first hand with him to see what tricks might work. By the end of the feeding session, he had eaten about an ounce. Since I didn't feel very full, I was actually pleased with that. She said he should be eating around 3.5 or 4 ounces a session and we usually supplement with 2 ounces. She gave me a new bottle to try and a prenatal vitamin designed for lactating mothers. I have an appointment next Monday (which I think I will have to change to either this Thursday or next Tuesday because I have Austin Mondays and Fridays). She was very optimistic and hopeful.

I was, but then Finn had his next feeding session at home and was very stubborn and fussy. I did get him to eat a little bit, but then had Becky watch him so I could pump the rest. It doesn't help that I've had a migraine all day and I'm sure my patience level is nonexistent. I think this new bottle is supposed to increase his sucking ability (he doesn't have a very strong suck, which is why his pacifier doesn't stay in!). I'm in the "we'll see" state of mind. If he doesn't get better, it just isn't worth it. But I SO want him to get better! And the weird thing is that he eats fine the first two or three feedings of the day and then progressively gets fussier during the day (maybe a side effect of colic?!?!). I don't know. Again, thank you so much for all the support. I just wish this weren't such an emotional thing for me and I wish I didn't want it so badly. But it is and I do, so again, we'll just have to see. I've sent prayers up to the Big Guy, so anything is possible, right?!?!